Tell me you don't want my kiss

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Let Me Love You- Chapter 18


(Short-ish chapter, I’ve been really busy but somehow had some time to update for you guys!)


Words couldn’t come out of my mouth. I tried speaking but it was as if someone had put me on mute. I saw Harry turn his eyes from Liam to me, back to Liam then back to me. He was waiting for some kind of a response that I couldn’t give him. I didn’t know how to.

Was he going to be pissed at me for having a “thing” that is no longer anything with Liam? Wouldn’t he understand? Why can’t I have my best friend and a small little romance with someone else? I don’t get it.

I gulped and covered my face with my hands and shook my head. 

"Bella! What is he talking about! Tell me! Now!" Harry yelled as he got off the bed and I felt him glaring at me.

I pulled my hands away from my eyes and looked up at him. This was it, I was going to lose my best friend. I looked over at Liam and watched him stand there, hoping for me to change my mind.

"Liam and I have been dating. Not officially but-"

"G-Get out." Harry commanded. I quickly turned to him and shook my head again, I made my way over to him and stared up into his green eyes. He stepped back and pointed to the doorway where Liam was standing.

"Harry, Don’t be mad at me, it’s not even a big dea-"

"Get out!" He yelled and I practically ran out of the room in tears. I didn’t think he’d take it that bad, but he did. I pushed past Liam and ran quickly down the stairs. As I opened the front door with tears streaming down my cheeks, Just as I thought my life couldn’t get any worse, I gasped as I saw the one person I never thought I’d see here. 

My mother.

"Bella! Where the hell have you been! We’re going home right now! What’s your problem, Bella?! And why are you crying! I heard screaming! What’s going on! Where are the boys! I’ve been looking everywhere for you! I came here hoping to find you but really didn’t think you’d do that, Bella! What’s going on here?! Are you dating one of them?! How could you do that to me?!" She continued yelling. I ignored her and ran into the car. I covered my face and began sobbing against my cold hands. 

Minutes later I felt her get into the car. It was a silent drive home unless you count my sniffling. 

I knew I wouldn’t hear the end of it when I got home. That’s exactly what happened. 

I started walking towards my room and let out a loud sigh as I heard her voice. 
"Bella, Liam told me what happened."

I ignored her and stood there with my arms crossed over my chest. Did Liam actually tell her? Wow. What else had he told her? Had Harry told him we had sex? Had he told her?

"Nothing happened, Mom. There’s nothing going on with me and Liam or me and Harry. There’s nothing. You got it? Absolutely nothing so stop nagging me about that." I said rudely.

"Bella, How could you do that to me? Do you know what kind of image that’s going to leave for me? My own daughter is "hooking up" with my own clients! How the hell do you think that’s okay?!"

"And do you really think it’s okay for you to be telling me who I can and cannot be dating?! I’m not even dating either of them! So don’t be telling me shit about them! How could you do this to me?! You made me move over here! I didn’t want to but yet you made me! How is that fair for me, huh?!” 

She watched me then nodded. “You’re right. We’re leaving first thing tomorrow. Start packing, Isabella.” 

 I ran into my room and locked myself in it. I threw everything in sight to the wall, even my phone. I wouldn’t even care if it broke. It would disconnect me from everyone. I was so tired of everything. I always got my hopes up just to get them crushed.

Let Me Love You- Chapter 17


I couldn’t help it, it was going to slip out at some point and I knew I would feel better if I just told Harry about it. But I couldn’t. I’d feel embarassed because Harry did tell me that Liam was going to hurt me. He warned me. ”Noth-” I began.

Just then the front door opened and I turned to see Liam standing at the doorway with a sad look on his face.

"Bella, I’m so sorry. Please forg-"

I quickly interrupted him. “I- Liam.. It’s okay, it’s okay. Listen, the spaghetti wasn’t that bad. It was good, it’s just that it made me sick, that’s all. Don’t be sorry.” I glared at him.

He stared at Harry and I, confused. Harry looked at me before I pulled away from his arms and bit my bottom lip that had been quivering minutes ago.

"Oo-kay.." Liam said quietly. Harry smiled at me and put his arm around my shoulder. Good, he fell for it, I thought.

Liam stared at Harry and I, I would sense some kind of jealousy coming from him. But I’m pretty sure he was thinking we were just friends. Which.. we were.

Besides the fact that we fucked a while back, but no one had to know about that.



"So, Harry why are you here again? I thought you were going to be out with the mates? Are you going to leave again? Soon?" I asked innocently but I knew he knew that he had interrupted something between Bella and I. He’s stupid if he didn’t get the point by now.

He tightened his arm around her and she watched me with those dark brown eyes of hers. I couldn’t help getting jealous. I knew they were friends but I didn’t like it. They were to good of friends. Sometimes it seemed like Harry really did like her, unless he was just doing it to get at me and make me jealous. 

"Because I had plans with Bella and I wanted to hangout with her, Dad. Any other questions?" He said. Smartass.

"Fuck off." I muttered under my breath and walked over to the kitchen. 



"He’s an idiot. You wanna go up to my room and watch a movie or something? And just catch up. We have a lot of catching up to do, Bella.” Harry said quietly into my ear as we watched Liam walk into the kitchen.

I still felt the lump in my throat. Liam had hurt me. I didn’t want to be here but if I wanted to keep Harry as a friend and not look like a stupid girl that hadn’t listened to a single word of what he had warned me about then I would have to stay and make the most of it. Harry was here now, It would be better.

"Yeah, sure. Let’s go." I said then watched Liam look over at me and frown. I looked away and walked up the stairs with Harry.

As we walked into his navy colored room with clothes all over the floor, Harry closed the door behind us and smiled widely.

I sat on his bed and watched him take his shoes off and brush his curls out of his eyes.

"Is something wrong, love?" He said then sat down next to me. I shook my head and looked down. I guess I wasn’t that hard to read when something was wrong with me. 

"N-No.. Just tired." I muttered, I even rubbed my eye and tried to yawn then failed miserably.

"Oh, Well then let’s lay down.." He said slightly awkwardly.

I nodded and laid myself back against his comfortable bed. He laid down beside me and put his arm around my shoulder. I moved closer to him and threw my arm around his body and squeezed him as hard as I could.

I heard him chuckle and pat my back. “You sure nothing’s wrong? You seem a little quiet? I know you’re tired and all but-“

"I’m good, Harry. I’ve just missed you. You’re my best friend and I don’t ever want you to think less of me. Because of the thing’s I do, because of the things I say, my actions, nothing. I don’t want to lose you."

He stayed quiet for a long moment then sighed and I felt his eyes focus on my face as I laid my head down against his chest, I watched his chest rise up and down slowly as he breathed.

"You’re not going to lose me, Bella. I assure you that. I was afraid I had already lost you to Liam." 

The knot in my throat came back and I swallowed as hard as I could. “W-why would you think that?”

"Because of the way you look at him, Bella. The way you’re always so smiley and happy and always laughing around him. It’s as if he’s your favorite person in the world. I mean, I know you would never go for someone like him anymore. Especially after everything I’ve already told you about him and everything in the past, all his history with girls. You’re not stupid. I was just afraid. I’m glad it’s not like that though." 

I simply nodded, I was basically lying to his face and I was hating every second of it. I then felt him kiss my forehead.

"You’re my Bella." He sighed and I felt myself slowly drifting off into sleep. He hugged me tighter and we both fell asleep safe and sound in each other’s arms. 



I had to apologize again. It was killing me inside. This was going to be my only chance for me to be able to have Bella hear me out and actually listen to what I had to say. I didn’t know what she was talking about earlier about my food making her sick, maybe it did, I don’t know but I had to do it.

I took a deep breath and walked up the stairs, I chewed on my cheek and walked towards Harry’s room and slowly turned the knob and walked in. Before I could even see them, I started to speak.

"I know I’ve already said it but, I’m sorry Bella. I shouldn’t have kissed you and I shouldn’t have taken you on that date if I still had a girlfriend, I shouldn’t have done that, I realize that but please give me another chance to prove to you that I’m changing. I’ll change for you, you make me want to change. I don’t care about anything or anyone else anymore, I just need you to give me another chance, I’m falling for you Be-" I stopped for a moment and realized that Harry and Bella were in bed, hugging each other, half awake. Harry glared at me and then stared at Bella and rubbed his temple.

"What the fuck are you doing? What are you talking about, Liam?" Harry asked me then Bella sat up and shook her head. Atleast I knew she had heard everything I had said.

"Lia-" She began.

"No, Bella. Please just let me prove it to you, I’ll change. I really like you Bella and I don’t want to hurt you."

Harry shook his head and stared in confusion at both of us. 

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Let Me Love You- Chapter 16



I quickly got into Liam’s car, It was weird getting into the car on the opposite side. UK cars were weird but I didn’t even comment on it. It’s not like I hadn’t been in one before. Instead I smiled softly at him and he leaned over, cupped my cheeks and firmly placed a kiss on my lips. 

I didn’t even question the kiss, It felt so natural and nice. I loved it.

"Hey babe. You alright?" He asked quietly after pulling away. I still couldn’t get over the feeling I got when he called me babe. It made me feel like I was floating. Cliche but hey.

"Yeah, I just got in a fight with my mom. She’s been on my case lately, I’m sick and tired of her and her stupid questions and her stupid ass rules. I can’t wait until I get to live on my own." I said with an eye roll. He didn’t say anything else. I don’t think he would disrespect my mother and say something mean about her, since she did have a lot to do with them getting even more "famous."

After a couple minutes of silence he finally spoke again. “Well, babe.. I hope it’s okay if we just head back to my place and chill out. The boy’s won’t be there until later but I’ll hurry up and make you some lunch and we can go out for a movie or something.” 

"Harry won’t be there?" 

He seemed a little bothered by my question and glanced over at me then back at the road. He shook his head. “I don’t think so. Not until later at least… Why?”

"I-Just wondering.. I don’t know. I was just wondering." I didn’t mention the fact that Harry asked me to hang out too. No wonder he said later. He was probably going to be busy most of the day. In my head I began to think about how I could actually make it work out.

"So you talk to Harry now?" 

"Yeah.." I said quietly. The rest of the car ride was silent.

Maybe it would work out. I would hangout with Liam now and then later hangout with Harry and everyone would be happy right? 


"Liiiiiiiiiiiiiam!" I let out a giggle as he continued tickling me. He had me pinned against the couch. I had to admit, his hands all over my body did turn me on. I kept trying to slap his hands away but he was just too good to be pushed away. I kicked my legs and shook my head. He smiled as he watched me laugh hysterically. “Liam! I’m gonna throw up!” I continued laughing and finally he pulled his hands away from me. 

He had made me spaghetti and meatballs for dinner. And no we hadn’t kissed and ate spaghetti out of eachother’s mouths. We were barely just.. getting to know eachother. We would kiss every so often but nothing major. I was surprised Liam hadn’t been all over me like during our first date. Maybe he wasn’t the guy Harry told me he was. I knew what I was getting myself into when I started having feelings for Liam. He just made me feel so amazing. I knew he wouldn’t do what he did to other girls to me. I was hoping I was different.

I felt him wrap his arms around my waist tightly and he pulled me onto his lap. I smiled and he caressed my cheek. We sat back against the couch and talked and talked and talked. We even played 21 questions. Turns out he’s double jointed. 

"Liam?" I said as he stroked my hair.

"Yes?" I felt his eyes on me. I moved closer to him and hugged him tighter against me. 

"What happened between you and your girlfriend? Why did you break up and why did you tell me that you were considering yourself single but you never officially told me you were single?” 

He stayed quiet for a long moment then sighed and rubbed the back of his neck. He looked away then looked back at me. I stared into his brown eyes and shook my head. “Liam? Answer me.”

"Look, Just don’t get mad at me, Okay?" 

I had a feeling whatever Liam was going to tell me was going to make me mad at him and it was probably going to ruin things. I simply nodded slightly.

"Danielle and I hadn’t broken up when I told you we had… I-I cheated on her with you and I-well, it’s not like I hadn’t cheated on her before but y- Wait, that doesn’t sound right.. Forget that I just-I’m sorry.." He said nervously. I watched him and couldn’t believe what my ears were hearing. 

"Y-You lied to me? You cheated on her with me? Am I some kind of a fucking homewrecker now? Is that what I am?!” I quickly pulled away from him and shoved him back roughly. 

"Bella! No! Please don’t get mad over this! We’re broken up now! There’s nothing between us anym-" I scoffed and interrupted him. "That’s right, there’s absolutely nothing between us anymore.”

I made my way quickly out the door and slammed it. My watery eyes made it hard for me to see. I took a deep breath and took my phone out. I was going to call the last person I wanted to talk to. My mother. 

Right as I exited out the door I saw a car pull over. Harry’s car. I gulped and inside, I sobbed over my horrible luck. “This cannot be happening right now. Not now.” I thought.

Harry got out of his car and smiled over at me then scratched the back of his head. “Bella? What are you doing here?” He walked up to me and wrapped his arms tightly around my waist. I inhaled deeply and smelled his strong yet amazing cologne. I hid my face against his neck and gulped again. I didn’t want Harry to know. “I was about to call you to come over..” I stayed quiet and tried to recover. I felt so hurt. My lips brushed against his warm skin.

"What’s wrong?" Harry pulled back slightly and examined my face carefully as he brushed a piece of hair away from my face.

He knew me too well.

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Let Me Love You- Chapter 15




"Y-You, You WHAT?!" I yelled into the phone after I heard Harry say what I thought he had said.

He sounded even more nervous. “I- I.. Yeah, I love you, You’re my best friend. I love you.  I can’t love you? Calm down. I’m just sorry… yeah, that’s all. I’m sorry and I love you. You’re my best friend, Bella..” He continued.

My heartbeat slowly made it’s way back to it’s normal pace. I nodded and gripped onto my phone. “Yeah, I love you too, then.” I didn’t know what to say. I decided to get down to business and ask him about his rude little comments. “Why were you so pissed at me, and W-why would you say those things to me, Harry? What did I ever do to you?” 

"Nothing, Bella. I guess I- I just got jealous and I reacted the wrong way, I know I shouldn’t have said those things or anything at all, I know but I let my anger get the best of me and I couldn’t control my mouth or my actions, Please forgive me. I’ll talk to Liam later, I promise." 

I sighed and looked at my fingernails then began to pick at them. I had a bad habit of biting my nails. I shrugged and sighed louder, loud enough for Harry to hear how bad it had really upset me. “Fine.” I simply said. “Wait a minute… Why were you jealous in the first place?” 

"I-I wasnt, I mean, I, I just thought I was your best friend, not him. You basically left me for him and I was there all alone watching you two giggle and flirt.” He said. Sounded a bit irritated when he said it.

"Harry, First of all, You are my best friend and you always will be. I assure you that. 

"Good. Thank you. You wanna hangout later?" He asked.

Right as he asked, I got a text from Liam.

I put Harry on speakerphone and read Liam’s text slowly.

"You busy today, babe? :-) xxx Liam" I couldn’t help but giggle. I just loved it when Liam would call me that. It was like the fifth time he had called me that already. Not that I was counting or anything.

"Hello?" Harry said. I had forgotten I was even talking to him.

"Oh, yeah. What?" 

"Bella, Are you ignoring me?" I quickly texted Liam back saying no with two smiley faces. I giggled some more. I heard Harry groan. "Bella!" 


"Answer my question! What are you doing?! Why aren’t you talking to me?! I just asked you a question!" 

"Oh, I said Sure! Sure, Harry! Sure! S-u-r-e! Sure!" 

He finally chuckled and I smiled a little. I knew he couldn’t stay made at me. Over anything, really.

"Okay, Well then come over in a bit and we’ll see what we can do. I’ll be waiting for you."

"Yeah yeah, Later twat." I smiled wider and hung up before he could say anything. I only heard him chuckle some more.



Danielle and I were officially dunzo. I couldn’t handle that bitch anymore. She was always whining or bitching at me over any little thing. It was just too much for me. I needed a girl that would be the total opposite. I already knew who that girl was, I just had to make her fall for me just like I was falling for her. Weird, I never “fall” for girls, but Bella was different, I swear.

After she texted me that she wasn’t busy, I started thinking of places I could take her to. Where we could be all alone. Just like yesterday. I was even considering of telling her Danielle and I were really really over this time. I don’t think she’d get mad. I just kissed her, it’s not like we had sex or something. If anything, Danielle should be the one getting mad over me cheating on her. It’s not my fault. I have hormones.

"Come over :-) And we’ll figure out where we’ll be going out today. Wear something nice? I’m sure you’ll look beautiful though. xxxxx Liam."

I knew exactly where I was going to take Bella. 



"I’m going out with L-.. A friend I made!" I yelled. 

"Since when do you have any friends here, Bella?! Why haven’t you told me about these so called friends?!" My mom yelled back at me.

I really couldn’t handle her anymore. She was beginning to get fucking ridiculous. She really didn’t know anything about my life anymore and who I was friends with or anything. All she cared about was her and her stupid business that had ruined everything in the first place. Of course, I didn’t want her to know that I was best friends with Harry and I liked Liam. She would go psycho and probably quit her job and move back to America which would mean I’d have to go with her, I wasn’t going to let that happen. Thing’s were barely stirring up in my ridiculous, boring life. I was only going to make her feel guilty by yelling to her about her stupid job. I didn’t care at this point.

"Since you’re not here anymore! All you care and worry about is you and your dumb ass fucking job! I moved over here because of you! I left my friends! My school! My town! All because of YOU! Don’t start telling me shit over you not wanting me to go out! I have a life too, you know! Not just because you don’t have a love life doesn’t mean I can’t have one too!" 

She stared at me with a deep glare for a second then the words I had said to her began to sink in. She frowned a bit.

I didn’t look back and quickly walked out of the apartment. 

I pulled my phone out and quickly called Liam. “L-Liam? Can you come pick me up? I know I’m a little late and I was supposed to be going over there but I-“

"It’s okay. On my way love." Liam said with his heavy, sexy accent.

After I hung up, I realized something that I really hadn’t paid much attention to.

You wanna hangout later?” I flashed back and thought of Harry. He wanted to hangout today, and I had already said yes.

Fuck..” I mumbled. He was going to think I ditched him or something. He was going to hate me for this.

Here comes the drama.